As much as I feel recovered, I still have weird feelings about eating. For example, I don't have a problem with eating McDonald's once in a blue moon, but I WILL NOT, under ANY circumstances, order it myself or eat it in the restaurant. I feel self-conscious, as if people are looking at me and thinking, omg why is she eating that. I also won't buy unhealthy junk from the store by myself. I just won't. Maybe I feel like it's not "me." By that I mean that maybe being unhealthy is something that I won't ever be able to do
normally. I don't really have a problem with this.
I start school in 12 days. I'd like to get really toned up by then. Totally possible with my metabolism. I just need to focus on eating healthy and exercising. I'm going to start the Insanity program tomorrow. For those of you who don't know what Insanity is, I suggest you look it up! I'm so excited for how my body will look once I complete the program!
