New Perspective

The strangest of things is happening to me. For the past month, extreme laziness has overtaken me. I have not gone outside in 3 weeks. I have not exercised, in the slightest, in 4 weeks. I have been maintaining my weight by eating like a normal healthy person; it is so strange, so foreign to me. I haven't been updating as much because nothing new or interesting has been happening to me. But I'm getting bored of that. Shocker. Haha. I want to start successfully losing weight again. So today, I'm ACTUALLY going to exercise. It's the most beautiful day and I want to create happy memories for myself.

I was going though my old journals the other day, from when I was really really thin. I've decided to do things similar to what I did back then. I'm keeping my calories between 800-1000 per day, eating every 2 hours, and eating whole foods, mostly fruits and vegetables and lean protein. I am always satisfied and I never crave. It's quite a beautiful thing. AND my tummy is flat and never bloated. Truth be told, I want to prove to myself how STRONG I can become. My hatred for my parents does not have to consume me; I can become thin at the same time.