Saturday, May 21, 2011

Overboard

I haven't gone overboard in a long time. Something possessed me this morning to have a really BIG snack: bread (110), olive oil (60), cheese (40), and nutella (75). That's a 285-calorie snack! With 15 grams of fat! Holy crap. NOW I'm pissed at myself. I wanted today to be a rest day, but in 10 minutes I'm dragging myself to the gym to do 35 minutes on the elliptical, 10 minutes in the rowing machine and 20 minutes of strength training. The reason I'm extra pissed is because tomorrow we're hosting a wedding shower and my mom isn't serving the healthiest food. I'm nervous about it. I was HOPING today would be perfect so if I slipped tomorrow, it wouldn't be so bad. BUT NO. I fucked up. Now I'm going to the gym and I'll have to be extra diligent tomorrow.
I'm really agitated at the fact that I'm not losing weight. I suppose I need to push HARDER and be more FOCUSED about my diet. This is the summer I become ripped.

8 comments:

  1. Don't worry too much, we all make 'mistakes' once in a while. It'll only make you stronger. Have fun tomorrow, try to enjoy it just a little!

    Loads of love to you, dear.
    Merely

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  2. Don't worry too much. All that exercise will do more than make up for it :)

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  3. I hear that!! this is the summer to become ripped and im doing exercise by the bucket loads to make sure i am at the highest weight today for the rest of my life. the pounds will trickle off from here on we got this!! xxx

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  4. you are so thin already.you will disappear into thin air if you lose more.you are perfect the way you are.keep reminding yourself that.be healthy and god bless you dear.

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  5. Keep going and everything gonna be alright.
    You can do this Girl!
    Stay Strong.
    xxx

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  6. hello,
    i'm a total stranger, paused at this blog after looking in goggle images for "happy kid in school". i'm a graphic designer. male, just passed 35 : ) ah, i worked in past in advertising companies, did fashion catalogs etc etc... i'm from israel -so not campaigns you heard of.
    dear, no idea how to put it in the most simplest yet clear way. from my knowledge and years in life it seems my comments won't make much difference. you're in a "state" to achieve something that you have long gone achieved. but without another goal u stick to the "being thin". yet, can't leave this blog of yours without saying what's on my mind.
    i don't know you- you don't know me, prob never will. is there a chance u listen to the truth as i see it-a male & stranger?
    you write with a touching voice. u seem to be smart too. wish half the girls i've met when i was your age were that flaunt.
    if that picture near your profile link is you. then your thin. really thin.
    if part of it is about boys notice you- well, sad to tell ya- there is a chance they long have- u being so slender (and maybe very pretty?) if it is so - most might not dare approach.yep - ever thought about that?!.
    i quite my job in the advertising for the over demanded to photoshop models. u do know ALL photos u see are photoshoped dont' ya?! i refused, said what i did was enough, a leading model begged me to photshop more!!! she got used to see herself like in the adverts: smooth skin and extra slim! she lost grip of how she really looks like!!! (which is GOOD!) so clash. i said good-by.
    DO BELIEVE ME - many models i worked with weren't' so so thin... yes, they were slender, athletic i think be best term & gorgeous. in a way they were woman. that is what was appealing in their look. not just being thin.
    if i talked with you now, what would you say to me about the world and how u see it? what was the last book you read? good movie? interesting new website u saw? and yes- good food!!! (always a good topic for a date) - that's what create a sexy vibe, good look isn't enough to hold the attention...
    get attention by your talents: writing, music, singing, being a good friend, how u impact life around ya and leave your imprint & being beautiful is a good add on. that is a real woman! being just a "hottie" gets short term attention...and is boring. being a woman is more than good looks though yes it think it is an important aspect. its' also harder to get there. just like becoming a real man (working on it... : ).
    u gotta work harder on the ability to have fun - and active. you will see life (and people attention and love ) will stream your way, be you 10kg more or less!
    so sorry- don't keep going at being more thin & losing everything else in your life! listen to a person 15years more life experience then ya (including army, being shot at know fashion world etc etc) it's not going to get you your goal: being content in life (happiness may follow, - also hard work).
    want to lose weight to look better- i'm for that. really. want to focus your life on this? i'm against. u live once, enjoy it - and if u think u have a tendency to overweight (by the photo and writing it soooo opposite!) then learn to eat well and healthy. bread, olive oil nutella and cheese is small overall healthy snack. your body hasn't even turned it into fat so fast! prob turned it all into energy it so needs! your bod is reaching a point where it cannot lose more weight for its damage to the system!!! let's see you reach a balanced weight and keeping it for half a year! do that, then decide if u need to lose more.
    start a balanced way of eating... if just getting thinner and thinner is the life u want.. oh dear. oh dear.
    if you ever want to comment. try looking me up on internet, your intelligence + info i gave should allow you to find my 1page and my em is there. : )
    asafb.

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  7. Hey beautiful.

    Don't beat yourself up too much. random binges are actually good - they kick your metabolism into overdrive because it's encountering something slightly different. Put it in a box and move on. :)

    Love your blog.

    Butterfly

    xxxx

    www.futureformercaterpillar.blogspot.com

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  8. Yeh!! Oh I'm so excited lol.

    How are you keeping?
    Hope you know I'm always here for you
    xo

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