War

In a time of war, we don't eat. We only think about it, because we cannot AFFORD to eat, we're simply CANNOT get fat, we must NOT gain weight. It's crucial. I was looking at my profile pic on here, and was amazed at how slim my thighs were and how narrow my hips were. I think that pic was taken July 2009. Back then I restricted to the max and binges were rare. Why aren't binges rare for me anymore? No idea, I couldn't tell you. But I'm determined to make them rare again. I can make myself 10 lbs lighter in 30 days. I can, I can, I can, I WILL. So, everytime I feel like eating unnecessarily, I'm going to stop, think about getting fat, then stop myself. It won't be worth it. One bite will always hurt. It always does.

I'm so magnificently in love with Karlie Kloss. Anyway, it's the weekend again...I'm DETERMINED to have a good weekend. I have NEVER had a good weekend. I actually dread weekends because 1) I know that I won't do any work, hence I'll fall behind, and 2) I know I'll binge and get fatter. But not this weekend, because I'm on a mission to lose 10 lb in 30 days. No food outside the meal plan. 30 minutes of ballet practice everyday, to stay thinspired. And the 100 push-ups training plan. I have to study for my huge midterm psychology test and finish a less-than-one page French composition. That's my to-do list this weekend. That's the equivalent of plenty of reasons not to eat.

I hope all you lovelies are as thinspired as I am! If you've messed up, start making the change, NOW! Make a plan, create subgoals, start a journal to track progress... Let's banish fat. xo