OHH, my GOD. I am so fucking sick of eating. I haven't really BEEN eating a lot, but that's not the point. I wish I could eat on my own time, whenever I want. Like, tonight, dinner's with my family, and honestly, I am tired of eating. I have other things to do. LEGIT. It makes me really angry that I have to waste my time eating a meal with my stupid family. I don't want to eat anything tonight. I started eating an apple 15 minutes ago and I've eaten half of it, but the entire time, I was sighing and wondering why the fuck I even started eating it in the first place, I don't even feel like eating! Ugh, I'm so pissed right now. I HATE family dinners. They are starting to be a real inconvenience and a strain on my life.
I don't think I'm going to come home for dinners anymore. I'll just tell my parents I'll eat with friends, but spend the rest of the night studying in the library. I hate it here...I can't even concentrate...And the boy I met on Friday keeps texting me...I wish he would call. If he keeps this up, I'm going to lose interest. I want to TALK, MEET...Anyway, if he doesn't call or make any indication of wanting to talk in person and only texts in the next 3 days, I'm going to forget about it. Meeting him was just a confidence booster, now I know what I can do to meet other hot guys. On a different note, I can notice the difference in my body. my hips are shrinking and my arms are thinner and more toned. I'm loving this. I was so tired when working out today, but the entire time I kept thinking, 'I am going to get so skinny, I'm going to get down to 93 lb, I'm going to DO this...'
you sound so strong.
ReplyDeleteyour really an inspiration.
and yes, you are going to do this.
xoxo
Honey keep it up. as much as this may come to a disappointment to u I'm more along the lines of bulimic now. i used to hate throwing up but now I don't I don't mind very much. it seems I've lost control of wht i put in so I control wht comes out now. I will be 98.5 lbs I will!! girl I wish I could see ur legs and perfect hip bones and arms. how lovely =] keep it up!!
ReplyDeleteYou really sound controlled, which is a good thing. But if you start to stay away from your family whenever they are having dinner they may get suspicious. I'm just considering that.
ReplyDeleteBut I think you'll do fine. You sound strong. Keep it up, honey.
Best wishes,
Merely
Hey, i'm a new follower :) Love your pictures and your blog. You're so in control and strong, keep at it girl. I hate family dinners too. H x
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