Clumsy

Today's been a good day. Haven't eaten much and spent 2 hours at the gym. The gym was very busy at 1 in the afternoon...I don't know what was wrong with me today, but at the gym I kept stumbling and tripping all over the place. I stumbled while running/walking on the treadmill about 5 times...There was a cute guy on the treadmill beside me...I stumbled getting off the machine. I stumbled going up the stairs to the indoor track. Ugh, it was so stupid. I didn't want to look like a clumsy ditz, so I made out like I was really weak. I'd rather look like a fragile anorexic than a klutz. The cutie looked at me a couple of times while we were both using different machines. I don't know what was wrong with my legs. I've been working out too much I think...But the results will be worth it!

I was going to stay at school and study, but I got really sweaty and smelly at the gym and today's the day I have to wash my hair, and I didn't want to shower at school, study, then come home and wash my hair. So I decided to go home and the entire drive home, I was repeating in my head, 'I'm going to go home and not eat. I won't eat. I won't eat. I won't eat...' Being at home and having access to a kitchen just compels me to eat, so I had to remind myself. I have succeeded! I'm just gonna have a small dinner of carrots and some chicken, then studying all night. I'm sick of this 103 lb plateau. I'm gonna get over it. I give myself a week. End of story. It's going to happen.